After you left me, and it has been six months now, it was only yesterday that I bought my first utensils which composed of a noodle bowl and an oriental spoon. I also bought some instant sachets of cereal and oatmeals because I am alarmed of the amount of barbecue I eat everyday. I eat barbecue for dinner because there is nothing available at stored during the evening except that.

I remember the first night I ate dinner in my new boarding house. I was eating barbecue and puso (hanging rice as it is called because it is hanged when displayed at food stalls). This is a kind of rice in which you wrap the rice with coconut leaves when you boil them). I didn’t have anything to put my food into, so I used the plastic bag. I placed the food into it and ate into it. I was crying while eating. I felt so small.